Monday, August 10, 2009
4:58:00 PM ●

believe or not,
im at a stage whereby i hate everything.

i hate everything about myself,
everyone around me,
everything around me,
everything that's happening to me.
sad.
but i guess if you were in my shoes,
you will know what i mean.
but i doubt you guys know what i mean,
because no one bothers to think in your shoes.
you get it?

nah.
you wont.
no body will.

have you ever felt like you've lived so many years of your life happy,
and suddenly everything starts crashing and everything sucks?
have you felt like youre really not that bad person,
but you realised that actually no one truly appreciates you?
have you felt like you've found your closest friends and they are like your family,
but at the end of the day,
you are so misunderstood,
your world is silent,
you are so alone and no one understands you?

yup.
i know i sound like a spoilt brat.
but so what.
i am.
why should i be matured when everyone around me isnt.

sometimes it really sucks to be me.
its like you've really gotta live to your name of being strong.
how i do it?
repeat this:
"im strong.im capable.im independent."
laugh if you wish.
but thats the only way that keeps you going.
thats how i keep on moving.

i have so much thoughts in my mind.
but i cant express everything out.
theres so much angst, worry, stress,
and the list goes on.
where is everyone when you needed them?
all busy with spouses or they just dont care?


the only word i can think of to describe my life, my emotions, my everything now,

empty.:)

xxxxxx

( Run to the city. )