Wednesday, July 15, 2009
2:09:00 PM ●

some times i just feel that life really sucks.
at least for mine.
its as if nothing is going right.
or rather,
nothing seems right.

its funny how, the harder i try to control my life,
the more out of control it gets.

whenever i look at my secondary school photos,
or just simply meet up with them,
memories just keeps flooding in.:)

its like the most loving, natural and happy people we'll ever meet.

and when we start to talk about our own individual life,
not everything as nice as it looks.
i always wondered, what did i do to make myself so happy back then.
there was really nothing much to worry about.
if i had no money, my friends would feed me.
if i was a tad bit sad, they would hug me and say its okay.
if i was busy, they would share the load and burden with me.
but now,
it feels like im an island.
many things are on my mind.
but none of them unloaded.

simplicity is something i wished i had,
which we all know is impossible.

why is the lord not showing me the light.
or is this the light to my life,
so gloomy, so dark.

i pray ask ask you lord,
did you set these obstacles between me and my bf again and again?
is this to test our love,
or are you telling me and he is not mine to keep?
sometimes i wish i could just leave these things in your hands.
but it seems to me that ill never get my answer.

i just want a happy relationship.
can time rewind?

xxxxxx

( Run to the city. )