Wednesday, April 22, 2009
1:04:00 AM ●

have you ever imagined dying tommorrow?
would you regret not holding your loved one at your death bed and saying "i love you" as your last three words?
would you regret fighting with your loved ones with your last moments?
would you regret not taking an extra glimpse of someone youall never see again?

i would.
that was why i chose to be with you.

mad by neyo


Oooo oooo oooo
Oooo oooo ummm

She's staring at me, I'm sitting wondering what she's thinking
Ummm Nobody's talking, cause' talking just turns into screaming (Oooo)
And now yes I'm yelling over her, she yelling over me,
all that that means is neither of us are listening,
and what's even worse, that we don't even remember why we're fighting

It's all for nothing (fighting for)
nothing, (crying for)
nothing, (oohh)

When we won't let it go for nothing, (come back for)
nothing,
it should be nothing
to a love like what we got oh baby

I know sometimes it's gonna rain,
But baby can we make up now
cause' I can't sleep through the pain (can't sleep through the pain)
girl I don't want to go to bed, mad at you
and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me
no I don't want to go to bed mad at you
and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh noo)

Umm
and it gets me upset girl when you're constantly accusing
(asking questions like you already know)
hey we're fighting this war when both of us are losing
(this ain't the way that love is supposed to go, what happened to working it out?)
We fall into this place where you ain't backing down, and I ain't backing down,
so what the hell do we do now?

It's all for nothing (fighting for)
nothing, (crying for)
nothing... (oohh)

When we won't let it go for nothing,
nothing,
it should be nothing
to a love like what we got oh baby

I know sometimes it's gonna rain,
But baby can we make up now
cause' I can't sleep through the pain (can't sleep through the pain)
girl I don't want to go to bed mad at you
and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me
no I don't want to go to bed mad at you
and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh noo)

Oh baby this love ain't gone be perfect, (perfect perfect oh no)
And just how good it's gonna be
We can fuss and we can fight long as everything is alright between us before we go to sleep...

Baby we're gonna be...

Yah.... Baby....

ohhhh....ohhhh

I know sometimes it's gonna rain,
But baby can we make up now
cause' I can't sleep through the pain (can't sleep through the pain)
girl I don't want to go to bed mad at you
and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me
no I don't want to go to bed mad at you
and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh noo, nooo, noo)

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really love this song.
it seem to be written for us.
everything's so ugly right.
when i thought everything was just fine last sunday.
we had such a great time, laughing, taking neoprints, watching a movie.
everything was perfect.

but now, when i look at us, everything is perfectly wrong.
nothing is right.
i keep asking myself, why?
i thought when we said those 3 words,
we meant it.
i was sure you did.

but what you did yesterday,
all i could say was,
"how could you."

how could you bear to hear me cry and still called me irritating?
how could you bear to just slam me down and off your phone when i was still wailing?
how could you?
how could you say that i was selfish when all i thought about was you?
how could you bear to tear that heart of mine into so many pieces without even turning back to see if i was okay?
how could you?
i just cant figure it out.
i thought you were serious when you said "i love you"

remember that day when we were fighting on the phone before we broke up?
do you even remember what we were fighting about?
i dont.
i really dont.
but what you did yesterday,
my heart literally bled.
it was bleeding through those tears that rivered down my cheeks.
it just hurt so so bad,
i wish you really knew how impactful your words and actions can be on me.

looking back at your old msges made my heart ache even more.
i made me feel so cheated.
i trusted you with my heart again and again.
yet you abuse it and played with it.

everyone told me you were really not the one because we just kept fighting.
but i told them youre the only one i want.
and tell them, he has changed.
the first few times, i really thought you changed.
but it never lasted.

this time, it didnt either.
and i realised why.
you were never convinced you needed to and thats why you could only do it for a short period of time.
when i said i wanted to marry you, i meant it.
because i knew, you were really the one i love so so very much.
i do.
and i was so sure you did too.

but from yesterday, i told myself, how is that possible?
you did it to me before, and again and again.
and each time, the cut just gets deeper.

i know my temper is bad.
super bad.
but seriously ask yourself,
was i like this before?
what made me like this?
only you when you understand this, you will know why im like this.
not many people could tolerate such behaviour,
and i applaud you for holding it there for this long.
but, when i look at myself, i give myself a pat on the back too.

for i know that, id probably be the only girl who will be able to stand by you and love you in everyway i can.
i did.and i know you know it.
and i know one thing for sure, you will regret this.
maybe not now, but perhaps when life gets hard on you.
you'll realise, i would have been there for you whether rain or shine.

but for now ill say,
enjoy your freedom boy,
you'll find one girl soon who will probably not stand you as long as i did.

wish you all the best babe.
friends, family, god,
please help me.
i need all of you to get me through this.
i know its not going to be easy.
but if god can grant me indifference once,
he can do it again.

i really loved you.

why are allowing obstacles stop us from loving each other?

xxxxxx

( Run to the city. )