Sunday, March 22, 2009
5:40:00 PM ●

hello youall.
its been quite a while since i updated.
but here i am today blogging on a sunday.

the week has been soso.
not good not bad.
but theres this something that i have to get off my chest.:(

you ignored me for so many days.
and i din even know the reason.
i know you had your problems in army.
but you left me standing in that rain,
drenched from that thunderstorm.
i was wondering what went wrong.
but none of the reasons i came up with sounded right.

i was thinking in my head that if you had wanted space and just vanished just like that, the least you could do was at least let me know you needed space.
if you were angry with me, the least you could do was at least let me know so that i could do something.
you just ignored me and made me look so stupid.
you said i was not there for you,
but you did not provide the opportunity for me.

ask yourself,
wasn't i always next to you in rain or shine?
i have and always will be there.
and so what makes you think that i would fail to be next to you this time.
just think about it.
im so annoyed.

you were angry over such a small thing and you could choose to forget our anniversary.
you think it was worth it?
i kept this day for you and i waited for your reply.
but i got none.
i looked forward to this day with you after not seeing you for so long.
and finally when youre out,
you chose to continue this pettiness and forgo this very day we could have spent with each other.
i din want anthing extravagant.
just a simple dinner, or a nice movie, or just sitting at meridien and starring into space with you.
but no.
nothing i did was okay.
you wanted to play this game.
to prove something i guess?
to prove that you are a man and will stand on your grounds when your girl kup you.
is that right?

and today,
the last few hours before you book in,
the last few moments i have with you until like dont know when,
you cant even be bothered to find some time see me.
and when youre out, youre going to phuket.
guess youre just not ready to commit.

fuck you.
im fucking piss.
remember,
world does not revolve around you.
dont blame everything around you for whatever bad things that happen.


"When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how
long you will be around.

When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at all
fine.

When a GIRL stares at you she is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest .. she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL says ' I love you ' .. she means it.

When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' .... no one in this world can miss you more than
that.

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person ....


Find a guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

who calls you back when you hang up on him..

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who .... kisses
your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he
is to have you.

Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '"

im a girl too.
all i need is you to understand me and some simple actions.
im not as unreasonable as you think i am.
if you think im not good enough or you cant promise anything to me,
then find yourself a better girl.(which you would probably not be able to)

xxxxxx

( Run to the city. )