Friday, November 21, 2008
2:27:00 AM ●

hello youall.
i know i haven blogged for long.
so here i am.
lifes been alright i guess.
went to club yesterday.
i know.
it was a crazy idea.
i just had the urge to.
so i joined eunice and jasmine!:D

many people were there like, jeannie, meifen, rachel, siang koon, ken, john, darius, freddie and so on so forth.
dont mind the bold.
they were like...hahahaha!!
okay nvm.

so yah.
me eunice and jasmine went to zouk first to get our chop.
but were there first so they headed to arena to drink.
siang koon fetched me down with his NEW LICENSE!
feels good to be old and friends who drive!
so yah.
after arena we went to attica!:D
wah.at attica it was CRAZY.
we played drinking games and i so like lost in everything.
so yah.

end up when i reached but to zouk,
i was like piss drunk.
thanks nat for coming to look for me.:)
NAT WAS SO NICE!
i so puked at the bus stop like a dog and she dragged me to the coffee shop to clean the/MY shit off my leg.
HAHA.oh my.jst recalled i din even BATHE when i reach home.
but oh wells.
i puked like at the coffee shop again and at zouk again, and again.
so altogether about 4 times.
haha.
then i bumped into KEN AND THE REST!:D

i saw you too.
but the way you treated me was...
i have nothing to say.
you left me sitting alone and end up you want to call people?
so what if you were drunk?
im sure you stil could think right.
and you ignored me after that.
as if i did something wrong.

DONT POINT YOUR TEN FINGERS AT EVERYONE.
IF YOU HADNT WALK AWAY,WOULD THAT EVEN HAPPEN?
no.

and this morning,
did you even bother to apologise?
no.

no no no no no no.
NONE.
wow.
you din even feel a TINCH bit bad?
HAHAHA.

oh wells.
its the 21st again today!
hurray.
it always happens like this.
this month, last month, last last month.
HAHA.
our anniversay.
we ended on the 21st.
see the irony?

the best part is,
you promised that we'll meet on thursday.
you promised that when you come out you'll bring me out on a date.
something that ive been waiting for.
you promised to make it up for my birthday.
you promised to make it up for our anniversary.
you promised you'll teach me dota.
you promised that we'll go shopping.
you promised to watch a movie with me.
you promised that you'll learn the romeo and juliet song for me.
you promised to take good care of my tamagotchi.( i bet its dead or even hidden somewhere)
you promised that this year's christmas would be special.
most importantly,
you promised not to ever hurt me again.
a deal is a deal.
but a deal to you is a joke.

when you just casually told me you wanted a ear piece,
i went around asking where to get good ear piece.
i bought it as soon as i could.
you had no songs in your ipod.
i went around asking everyone how do i put in songs.
you said you wanted avenge sevenfold,
i helped you to put all that i could find.
when you were drunk,you said or did things that hurt so bad.
i could forgive you for all that, but do you even feel sorry?

i know. my temper is bad.
i know it.
but you never knew how to handle me in the first place.
this really sucks.
i told myself not to be stupid the last time.
i trusted you again and again.
but at the end of the day,
i trusted you to break my heart.
and it hurts.
not just because of you,
but because i feel like a fool.
falling again and again for you.

im not like any other girl.
im abit more crude than the rest.
im abit more loud than the rest.
im abit rougher than the rest.
im fiercer than the rest.
im more egoistic than the rest.

but deep inside,
im just a typical girl.
who yearns to be caressed but someone she loved so much.
who desires to hear those three words once in a while.
who would die to see that smile.
who would smile at everything small thing you do.
im just like any other girl in a relationship.
i am.
so stupid.
so gullible.
so ignorant.

im so tired.
so please.stop coming back and torturing me again and again.
ive had enough of this nonsense.
my friends are sick of hearing about us too.
im so drained.
so dry.
it was easy for you to keep asking for a chance.
but each time you do,
when have you ever felt like youve done your best?
or have you ever feel like youve tried so hard til youre dry?
ive said enough.
and i dont want to say any more.
i know im not perfect,
but i tried to be the perfect girlfriend for you.
have you tried to be mine?

i really love you, so much, that i was blinded by love.

xxxxxx

( Run to the city. )