Saturday, November 22, 2008
6:58:00 PM ●

hello youall!:)
its like 7pm and i just woke up not long ago.
went to phuture last night.
came home at like 6pm.
was like so tired la.
i mean catching only like few hours of sleep every night really needs some recuperating.
HAHA

my my.
i must say yesterday was like one my my best clubbing experience!
really.haha.
its like everything was soooo FREE AND EASY.
when i said free and easy it means, free, easy and NO CONTROL.

so like okay.
siang koon had a table at phuture and he brought me in.
he had like 3 bottles there but he just came from double O and drank like 4 bottles there.
HAHA.
so like 3 bottles for ten people who alr drank is like so more than enough.
saw many people like MR. SALLY and HENG! and bla bla.
YOUKS WAS THERE TOO!:D

so yeah.
the dancing part was so FUN!
really man.
haven had this kind of CLUBBING FUN in ages!

but then again.
there were a few things that were rather turn off.:(
the guys and THAT GUY.haha.

went home with siang koon and eunice.:)
siang koon was the merchant.
HAHA.
he pao like everything man!
it was like as in i spent nothing!
my drinks were free, my entry was free, taxi was free and so was my whole night supply of cigarette!:D:D:D:D:D
but the cigarette was mostly from mr sally.
so THANK YOU!:D

OHOH.
and one more thing i want to say.
there was this group of guys and girls that kept pushing me and eunice.
so then i push back.
but the guy that was behind me was too strong!
so eunice ask the guy to move abit.
but he never!
so the girls that were dancin inside said "NO!"
WAHHHH.
if you had seen her face.
god.i wanted to punch her flat and fucking fat face!
so like the girls were like bitching and all and so i just stared at them in the lianzz way.
HAHA.
so they decided to leave.
and while they were leaving,
they were fuckin pushing me and eunice la!
so nevermind.
I PUSH BACK!
haha.
then the fat girl turned to me and say "you better watch out"
i was so angry she said that, all i said, or rather SHOUTED WAS...
"FUCK YOU!".
haha.i literally did it in her face man.
my god.
you should have seen man.
they were fucking annoying.
oh wells.
back to my clubbing right after that.
HAHAHAHA.

hehe.
im so glad i went yesterday!:D
but so sad the next time im going is probably dec.
cause my exams are like in 2 weeks?
sian.

bu then again.
i want to say sorry to deb, cheong, guan, chow and stace.
my beloved bballers.:(
i pang sehed them!:(:(:(
i will make it up okay??
im really sorry.:(

and also!
before i went to zouk,
celeste and nat came to the prata shop opposite zouk to find me!:D
so happy!
we ate and celeste was totally like an idiot with germaine.
HAHA.:)

okay okay.
i better go bathe now.
im going out soon!!!:D:D:D

im happy.
even without you.
you will feel the loss soon i can tell you.
because, you dont how much i have given you.

i told you, that all i wanted was a typical boyfriend.
i have lowered ALL my expectations because i loved you.
you were no where close to what i expected my first boyfriend to be.

firstly, you din even have the courage to confess to me.
instead, you tried to hint and when i did not respond,
you went with another girl who threw herself on you.
i think she misses you so you can go for her.
then when you finally took the first step to want to be with me,
i forgave you but still din understand why you had to do that.

2ndly, you did not even bothered to send me home.
not even on our first month.
you just rushed off in a taxi and left me there.
i forgave you for that because i knew you sucked at this.

3rdly, you said i take you money.
but honestly. do you really think so?
if i do, will i give you money when you dont have?
will i even bother buying you or making you anything if i was really after your money?
you rather spend like a few hundreds on your friends drinking, watching movie, shopping.
but when have you ever spent like so much on me,
your gf for 1 year 2 months?
NEVER.:)

everytime i question you about what you have done for me,
you'll get all angry.
but do you realise that you get angry because you cant think of anything?
haha.
im a girl.
and i definately like presents, flowers and surprises.
but i dont even get it until i ask for it.
do you realise that?
did you ever thought to yourself that theres this something i really like and you really want to get it for me?
have you ever saved up for a present for me?
what did you do for my first birthday?
you still remember?
i still remember everything.
i told you i really liked the biggest pooh bear in the world.
but obviously i din mean that.
i just wanted a reasonably big pooh bear to hug to sleep.
but you ended up buying a pooh bear a baby couldnt even hug.
HAHA.
the best part was you said that buying the big pooh would make a hole in your pocket.
well done!
it was my first birthday with you man dude!
my first birthday with my FIRST boyfriend.
HAHA. it was memorable.:)
and my other friends could do it so easily!

not only do you not treasure me like a gem.
you always made me look so cheap and crazy.
do you remember?:)
arena? how you embarrassed me and said i cheated on you?
that day zouk? how you just got angry with me when i din even talk to that guy.
how do you think your friends would think of me?
you just dont care.:)
ignoring me and leaving me alone with YOUR friends and leaving me lying on the floor alone while you were consoling lydia.
did you ever thought i needed to be consoled too?
i woke up.
and you did not even care about me.
really.
and you had the cheek to say "YOUVE CAUSE ME ENOUGH TROUBLE FOR THE NIGHT".
when you were the one who created the trouble and your friends knew it too.
you dont know how silly you look.
you called your friends and got them into trouble and you had the cheek to drink.
when i told you i wanted to go home cause imy head hurt so bad,
you just left me.
again and again.
kuping me everytime i asked you to come out.
IVE HAD ENOUGH MAN.
seriously.im not a pushover.
not even to you.
you made me look so ugly all the time.

remember the times you just walked away so suavely,
and leaving me standing there crying liek a fool?
remember adam food centre?
one day before your anniversary?
how you could just walk away after dirtying my clothes.
AND NOT FEEL BAD AT ALL.
hahahahahahaha.
my.i was a idiot to even stay there.
should have just left!:D

i remember everything you did or have not done.
but that does not mean im vengeful.
it means that whatever hurtful things you ever did to me really impacted me and i will never forget.
i forgive you for everything.
because i know youre just not the guy i ever wanted.
my Mr Right is waiting for me somewhere.
i dont know where.
but someday hes gonna come.
and im gonna show you that you were not anything close to where i stand.
thank you.:)
i pity you and your future gfs.:)

xxxxxx

( Run to the city. )