Tuesday, January 01, 2008
6:46:00 PM ●

hello all.
ive been to so many blogs and they all start the same way.
HAHA.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
2007 is over and here comes 2008!

for me,
its really time to settle down and keep in mind what i want in the future.
screwed up once,
no more second chance.:(

to be honest.
im really scared.
dont think anyone will understand how i feel.
even i dont know how to express it in words.:(
ive neer felt this screwed up.

haven found a chance to speak to some one wise.
some one whom i can rely on.
some one who can give me constructive advice.
ANYONE?:((

its scary THINKING im making the right decision.
its scary THINKING, what if, i make the same mistake.:(

guess the only one we can trust is god now.
im gonna be good and pray to him.

i tried to talk to some one very dear to me.
but it seems the special some one does not really understand how i feel no matter how much i try to express myself.

guess im on my own from now on.
2008 here i come!=X
IM SURE I CAN DO IT.
im brave yes?YES!

okay that was psychotic.

so anw,
new year celebration was like ... for me.
but i was happy i was with my baby the entire day!
YAY.

31st december 2007
baby came over to my house in the morning!
he told me he had a little surprise for me.
i din know what to expect.
but he also said its something i would like.
and that he would chop his balls off if i din like.
HAH.
but okay.
i liked it.
he brought ALVIN AND THE CHIP MUNKS DVD!
we watched it and they were REALLY REALLY cute.

i think aizaad thought i was mad or something.
i was laughing at parts that were not even funny.
but to me,i was laughing cause THEY WERE REALLY CUTE.
to top it off,
i was so engross in their cuteness that i started tearing.
I DONT KNOW WHY.
hahahah!
after that, we took like 30 min of power nap.
and we waited for my mummy to bring lunch for the both of us!
then headed out to sign up for my telemarketing job.:D

it was fun taking the train with baby cause we had so much to disturb each other about.
HAHA.
we took a train all the way to raffles place.
then we were like lost for a while but then found our way after calling DEBBO!

when i entered the place,
the people were so unfriendly at first.
like SERIOUSLY.
thank god aizaad was there with me.:)

so yeah.
all i had to do was fill up a form and TADA.
the place is quite nice.
alot of youngsters and its at BOAT QUAY!
hahaha.
good right.
after work can go there and DRINK.
the pay is quite good,$7/hr.
plus i think there will be commission.
so yeah.

after that me and baby decided to sit down near to river to rest.:))
we took some pictures but the wind was just too strong and our hair was just sduifgasuygfasidbv.
so we gave up that idea and decided to leave.
(actually we left partly cause baby and i wanted to shit)
HAHA.
so we headed to the train station and started searching for the toilet.
it was funny cause we were going in circles.
HAHA.
finally we found the toilet and we both took so long!

after which we headed to PS.
i went to face shop to buy nail polish!
but i bought the wrong colour.:(
sadly.
so im going back to buy the colour and one base coat!
then we walked to meridien to cut baby's hair.
we waited so long that the woman had to help him straighten his hair to buy time.hmmm.
he looks like a girl after he straighten la!
haha.

his hair is quite nice la.
but its still a little long.
so i just couldnt keep my mouth shut and i kept on talking about his hair.
HAHA.
that kinda irritated him.
you know the hair dresser took so long that,
by the time aizaad was done,
it was like 8 plus.
NICE?
so we went to meridien food court to slack a while then the guys went to play dota.--___--
so as usual, i just sat next to him and watch him play.
it was not that bad.
cause i was learning at the same time!

after that we went to the other meridien food court to eat CHICKEN!:D
my favourite!
so from then till 1st jan 2008,
we were just there,letting the clock tick to 12am.
HAHA.
but i was alright cause i was with...AIZAAD!

really love that boy.
he makes my days so bright!
and his little actions tickles of heart.:)
I LOVE YOU!

so yeah.
after the count down,
we walked to cine.
met van and cheryl over there while the guys walked towards taka that side.

i tell you,
the amount of banglas in singapore was like equivilent to the population of india!
SCARY.
the police were like giving random checks for illegal immigrant.
HAH.

we walk to wisma outside and just sat there.
me van and cheryl were like taking alot of pictures!
after that some one decided to walk to chips to drink.
so yeah.
we all walked there but i was STARVING.
so the girls went to macs to eat.
it was so nice just sitting down and talking to them.:)
by the time we were done,
the guys were back at meridien.
NICE?
so we walked back to meridien FROM CHIPS.
by the time we walked there was alr like 3 plus can.-_-
so we talk and talk and talk until 6 plus and headed home after that.

i swear was soooo TIRED!
i reached home,bathed and TOH.
woke up this morning at 2!
my sis prepared lunch and as usual,
i had to wash the dishes.-__-

my dad's coming back today!
hope he gives me some MONEY.
haha.okay that sounds quite mean.
but i guess this is reality.
HAHA.

so yeah.
its a new year,a new me, a new beginning!

im gonna write my new year resolution tmr!
my life motto is: NEVER GIVE UP and DO YOUR BEST.
always keep in mind your final goal and target it and you will not fail!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!:D

xxxxxx

( Run to the city. )