Friday, July 13, 2007
12:44:00 AM ●

hello all.
since some one is complaining that my blog is inconsistent.
so i shall be kind.
(not like anyone really reads...)

so yeah.
school today was as usual -___-"""...
yeah.but some how i think im starting to like the new time table.
its like super slack and i have days where i end with LECTURES.
those slackers adn ponners will know what im saying..
HEHE.
so yeah.
lifes been better..
but..there still this SOMETHING that i really cannot get over and its really eating into my bones.:(

sometimes i just wonder what am i doing in this current situation.
youll just think.."youre not the worst.","come on its not that bad.."
well, all i can say is..i think its karma.:(

i dont know how should i put it.
but i shall just say it in the simplest way i can.

in this school that im in.
im currently a nobody.
a nobody that seems invisible.

i have a feeling that i feel everyday when i step into the school.
a feeling ive never had before.
its really sad sometimes..but then again..youll learn how to console yourself.(it will feel better)

its like walking around the school knowing no damn person.
youll feel like youre suddenly on a foreign land whereby everyone gives you weird stares.
ive been like so called "clique hopping"..
but it hasnt been obvious.
cause i dont make it to be...
im still looking and searching or even yearning for THAT GROUP that i should belong in ___.

back in secondary school days..
friends/groups were easily spotted around school.
its was like a big family whereby you know almost everyone.
even the canteen vendors and security guards are not let off.
"hi" was like the most spoken word..
and yet now,its filled with cobwebs in my golden mouth of mine.:(

i have been having major mood swings in school that sometimes i dont understand too.
its like suddenly in this lesson you feel super hyper..
but the next you feel like some lethagic freak.
god.i really do sound like one now.

can some one turn back time and make everything in IJ happen once again?
sec four was really a prime of my life and i want to go back!:'(
some one?please?

but obviously we all know that thats TOTALLY ABSURD and LAME.
but i choose it to be like that.
to dream and fantacise in my own world.
it takes my mind off things i really dont wana thing about..

summary for the above..

grace yow = the big fat loser of the school

on a lighter note:
4/3 class outing tmr!
meeting at 7 at somerset mrt!
dont be late!:D

xxxxxx

( Run to the city. )